I am vs I want

I am vs I want

Desires are painful. Desires pin my ego into specific actions that must happen, pin my ego to specific moments in time, when in fact, there is no necessary action, there is no time. Everything passes, and exists together, the desire and the absence of desire. The reality of the world is it's beauty that exists beyond time. There is a richness that supports all of existence. Yet, in this moment my desires crave and that craving is pain.

The pain is because of the tension between an action now, and a state of being. Every desire has a focus that can satisfy it, and that focus is a way of being. The solution for hunger is to think about being lean. The solution for libido is to think about being trust worthy, the image of a wife who can be carried through her suffering and pain by me because she can trust and let go in my care. The desire to stop running, is overcome by the image of a high VO2 max result on a test, by being objectively fit.

Imagery of future me that resonates with my authentic truest self, imagery that is compelling because of its deeply satisfying nature, overcomes the momentary desire. Picture those true moments, play and revel in the future world that overcomes the momentary desire. It is about ways I am, states of being, versus momentary desires that can take those states of being away.

If I follow the desire, I can't have that state of being.

Every desire has a consequence. it satisfies now, at the cost of future states of being.

That is why some desires bring pain, because they take away a state of being.

Ways I want to be, versus my ego wanting now.